Thinking of you

The other day
I found myself
Thinking of you
Yet again
I said I wouldn't but I did
I'm sorry
Not to you
But to myself
I didn't mean anything
By it
Thinking of you
You
The scar
I hold in my heart
Torn open once again
Hurts so bad
Because I'm thinking of you
Not dying but
I wish I was
Not sick but
Still diseased
Because I just can't
Stop
Thinking
Of
You.